so, what are you waiting for

these were the words that looked up to me this morning from my bedroom floor. i had just been asking myself the question when i looked down, and there it was written on the front of a birthday card.
i realize that i have been waiting for, and putting my hope in my own selfish desires. but everything else pales in comparison to the hope i have in Christ. i have been waiting on the things God has for me, or rather what i think God has for me, instead of waiting upon WHO HE IS. When i wait upon his faithfulness, i have a feeling that my anxiousness will begin to go away. i don't need to keep trying to be patient and striving to just deal with it because you know, there's this thing called peace. And when we wait in the peace of the presence of God, we don't need to wait for anything at all. two things that i continually seek are compassion and contentment. contentment is rooted in this peace, knowing that whatever comes my way...or doesn't...won't change who I am in Christ.
i lay it all aside, just to be in the presence of the maker of my heart.